I woke up with a ton of nerves and excitement today. This was a really important day, if there are heartbeats then we are passing yet another hurdle on this adventure. The chances of miscarriage drop to 5% with a confirmed heartbeat.
Billy and I headed to the clinic around 8 am for the ultrasound with a spring in our step but I was feeling cautiously optimistic. When we started the ultrasounds I could see the heartbeat right away in the first baby, but I could also see that the other fetus just didn’t develop. It was an odd emotional feeling to be so excited that there was one with a heartbeat, relieved really, and then at the same time feeling sad about the other not having a heartbeat. Of course, then the emotions of having to tell Sara and Derek the news were hitting me, but I was trying to focus on the amazing news that there was a baby, a baby with a strong and healthy heartbeat. Usually you have to wait until around week 9 before you get to hear the heartbeat, and I was only 6 weeks 5 days.
After leaving the clinic I called Sara and Derek and shared the news, it was emotional, but they couldn’t be more happy to have a heartbeat, they had never gotten that far with any of her pregnancies. Now I just have to sort through my emotions and realize that a single pregnancy is much safer for the both of us.