Today was the big day, we headed over to RCC for FET around noon to get prepped for the procedure. All morning I was panicking that the blastocysts would not survive the thawing process. So in order to pass the time, I decided to watch a cheesy romantic comedy. At this point I don’t even recall the name of the movie, but it did the trick and eased my anxiety.
Just before noon, I checked my email to find an email from Sara with the subject line “Thaw” and my heart literally sank. But to my surprise it was an email letting me know the blastocysts were okay and we were all set. We arrived right on time, did a quick video for Sara and Derek and then headed in to wait with the rest of the women in the office. I kept looking around the room, wondering what their story was, how heartbreaking their past has been, but how hopeful their future could be. Then I realized, I am also that woman, although the heartbreak is not mine it is Sara and Derek’s and I am their hopeful future.
So after waiting what seemed like forever and my bladder already screaming at me we headed back to get prepped for the procedure. The doctor came in to chat about the procedure, which was the same as before, we signed some paperwork and then waited a bit longer. At this point my bladder was very angry and I still had at least 30-40 minutes to go. Why did I drink so much water??? We got into our gowns, caps, booties and headed back into the room. We had Sasha again and after a million questions from me (that I didn’t think to ask the first time) she began her work and the doctor started to prep my uterus. I don’t think I was as relaxed as last time, or my valium hadn’t fully kicked in yet because I felt pretty tense and the prepping was a bit uncomfortable this time.
But then we saw them, those cute little blastocysts waiting to become tiny little babies, bringing more joy than anyone could imagine. They are cute right? We watched them suck them into a catheter to be injected into my Uterus. Then we watched the screen (which I wish we could have gotten a better video of) as the doctor injected them into my Uterus. The cool thing is that it creates a blast of light as leave the catheter and enter the Uterus. After that it is a waiting game. But I didn’t wait long because my bladder was not happy and was about to create a very embarrassing scene. So I waited a few minutes, then got dressed and made a mad dash for the bathroom, phew!
After a quick blood draw I headed home to sleep off the valium and relax, which is where things stand right now. I have watched a few shows, tried to read and eaten but I am bored. I am not used to just sitting around relaxing, but I know that my body needs it and I am doing my best to relax. Sara and Derek sent some beautiful flowers with fall leaves as accents and I was so touched by the card I started to cry. My daughter thought I was crazy, but when I explained the gravity of the situation, I think she fully understood and gave me a giant hug. Love that girl!