Where do I begin? On Saturday, we did a final ultrasound to make sure that the cyst the doctor saw in my initial SSG was smaller or gone.
I sat in the doctor’s office with just a paper cloth to cover my goods, my palms began to sweat and my belly was in knots with nerves. Meanwhile Billy was relaxing to a game of Dominoes on his phone…of course!
I took the opportunity to snap a picture of the sonogram wand that would determine if surgery was needed to remove the cyst. In my heart I knew that I would pass this last step and avoid surgery, but there was a small part of me that couldn’t help but wonder if they would find that pesky cyst.
The entire procedure was over within 20 minutes and the doctor was happy with what he saw and sent me on my way. The relief I felt was immense, I was so excited to give the IP a call and let them know about the good news.
Yesterday I received a call from our IVF coordinator to let me know I should start birth control pills that night to start to control my cycle. I haven’t taken birth control for over 10 years, it seems so weird to think about starting again. As luck would have it, my insurance decided that this Rx is something I can mail order and they would not fill my prescription unless I called to override the mail order process. Typically mail order saves the consumer money, but in my case, birth control is covered under my insurance at no cost. I stood there at the counter wondering why they were giving me such a hard time for a FREE prescription, how was mail order going to same me any money?
Today I got a call from our IVF coordinator to walk through the calendar of events that would lead up to the big day. I can’t believe that in just over a month they will be implanting an embryo and hoping that it wants to make a home inside my belly.
I keep thinking about how I will feel to know that someone’s child is growing inside of me. I can’t help but wonder how the IPs are feeling about trusting me with such a huge responsibility. Yikes, that pressure is a little intense to consider, but I know that whatever happens, I will do whatever I can to make the most of this adventure.