Last time around, the waiting game was unbearable. I was continually looking up pregnancy calendars, estimating dates for ultrasounds and delivery. I was planning days for pregnancy tests and the thought of being pregnant was all consuming. This time around, I am so much more relaxed. I haven’t thought once about doing a home pregnancy test. In fact, I opened the cabinet to throw something away today and I saw a pregnancy test. I shrugged my shoulders, and moved on and haven’t thought about it since. It isn’t that I don’t think it will or could happen, it is just that I am letting my body do as it will do and obsessing is not going to change anything. If anything, it will create anxiety and make things drag on and on.
Given that I am so much more calm, something happened today that I never expected. I was getting ready to go to lunch and I realized I forgot my morning shot of Progesterone. I immediately panicked, scoured the internet for research, emailed the nurse and then waited for a reply. Everything I read said that missing a dose but taking it as soon as you can that day will not interfere with results. My nurse expressed how important the shot is since my body isn’t making the hormone yet so I need to make sure I do not miss shots, but I could wait until after work. Let’s hope this was a one-time error on my part, but the good news is that Billy is on high alert and will come down to my office and give me the shot if needed.