The last few weeks have flown by. Once we got the negative result for the pregnancy test, I started my period a week later and then we were on the road to FET again. We are 10 days out from the FET date and my emotions are so different this time around. Last time, I was already pregnant and the implantation was just a step in the process.
I was thinking about what to tell my friends and family, when to tell work, how long could I get away with not buying maternity clothes and so on. I didn’t even think about the fact that I could get a negative result on the beta test. Wow, that was a huge mistake, the disappointment was overwhelming.
This time around, I am excited, but I am completely in a different place than before. I am going in knowing each step in the process is important, that it leads to the next and one can’t happen before the other. I don’t have any preconceived notions of how this will end up, in fact, I realize that we may have to go through the egg retrieval process again, and maybe again. All, in all, I see the light at the end of the tunnel and while I can’t judge how far away it is, I believe that it is closer than it was before and we will get there in time, the right time for this all to happen.