Each week, I thought it would be fun to post a picture of my progress back to “me” pre-pregnancy, at least for the next 12 weeks. I may also include pictures of Jackson to show his growth and progress. Over the last week, my body has been in full recovery mode. It includes LARGE pads (although they seem a little over kill), ice packs, mesh panties and the handy dandy squirt bottle. Today, I am starting to feel like me again, at least in that general area, but I feel like I still have a few more weeks of recovery until all is back to normal. Yesterday I sat in the sun for a bit to get a little natural Vitamin D. As I sat outside with my book and a Popsicle, I took in the fact that I have 5 more weeks to recover, this time without a baby. So I have been thinking a lot about what I want to do over the next 5 weeks. Maybe take a trip? Relax at home? Contemplate life, work, family, goals etc? So I decided to just take it day by day and let time tell me what to do.
Okay, so here are a few pictures of my progress back to “me.” The first picture is me at 12 weeks pregnant, just a tiny little itty bitty bump is there. The second is 2 days after delivery with me holding Jackson, and the third is me today, 1 week after delivery. You can see that my stomach has gone down a bit, but I still have a ways to go. Also, you can see that my swelling has subsided even more. I didn’t think I was swollen in my face or upper body, but when I look back at my weekly pictures compared to today, I can see the swelling. So far I have lost 22/40 pounds, so that is also good progress. My goals is to be back at my pre-pregnancy weight by 4-5 months, not sure it is achievable but giving myself a goal to work towards.
Sara and Derek want me to send my breast milk to them, so I have been pumping every three hours and I am in full production at this point. I would love to give a shout out to a product I am using called Freemie, they are absolutely amazing. It is totally hands free, pumping as I type, and you don’t need any additional bras or bands to hold them in place. They simply sit in your nursing bra. Given all my pumping over the last week, I am starting to get a large supply for Jackson. Derek called today and is sending our first round of shipping supplies. The company sends a Styrofoam box as well as dry ice like sheets that you soak and freeze, which can keep the milk frozen for 3 days. We will give it a try and I will let you know how they work.
I thought I would include a picture of sweet Jackson at 1 week old, could he be any cuter??? Many of you are probably wondering how I am doing emotionally, now that Jackson is home with his parents. While I didn’t know how I would feel, I assumed that I would have an attachment to him, but not feel like I was giving up a baby of my own. The good news is that this is exactly how I feel. When I get pictures of him, or think of him, it is like I am thinking about a good friend’s baby. I have a strong attachment to him since I did carry him in my belly for 9 months, but it feels so good to see him in his parent’s arms. I know they love him more than anything and they are taking such good care of him. Also, a few of you have asked about postpartum depression since I had postpartum depression with both of my kids. So far, I am feeling great and haven’t noticed any depression but will keep you all updated each week if that changes.