I got up early this morning to get a few things done for work even though it is a holiday. I reached out to Sara and Derek and they asked how things were going, how I was feeling and seemed interested to see if I had any symptoms. I wasn’t sure how to respond, I don’t want to get their hopes up by anything I might be feeling, although I am remaining positive in my thoughts. Sara said she is feeling like I am pregnant and I asked her about whether or not she really wanted to know how I was feeling.
In the end, we are in this together, so I decided to share everything, the sore chest, the sore butt muscles from shots, feelings of being tired. Of course this is all something the progesterone causes and could mean nothing, but it started to happen (with the exception of sore butt muscles) on Saturday, just after my first test. They are hopeful and excited and I am too, so what did I do???
I took another test. Lucky for me, I had to go very badly and thought that this would be a good time. I had decided to do a second test Wednesday which is day 9, but I got a wild hair and did it today. Those darn sticks are tricky, tricky, tricky, tricky. I peed, it splashed, it may have been a wrong angle, but in any case the control window wasn’t showing up and either was the test window. After reading the directions and waiting 10 minutes a VERY faint control window showed up but not test window. So this means no HCG yet, or the test is a failure because I didn’t angle it right and it had back splash onto the windows.
Having been through this before with my own kids, I realize that you don’t want the urine to get onto the test windows, so Wednesday I will pee in a cup and dip instead. Waves of emotions are flooding me right now, what if I really am not pregnant? I am starting to feel pregnant, all the signs are there, but I know that progesterone can complicate things. Apparently I am not as patient as I thought I was…